Diamond diamond in the sky
Crystal tears in my eyes
Flowing down like a river now
Crying so much nobody cares

Little girl please do not cry
Papa dun wanna see you frown
Please please daughter dun be sad
Nobody wanna see your heart break down

Though it may be hard to accept
But knowing it is still the best
Rather than be kept from it
Truth sets free, oh you know that too

Nu'er cheer up now today
Do not think about the past animore
Forget about it if you're hurt
Nono dun think so much now

Hey little girl now dun you cry
Cuz everything's gonna be alright
Life will still go on just well
So just let the past go off right now

-James-

Story of.. saddness?

oh well.. possibly this is the last post i'll do on this blog.. anyone who hasn't found out yet, i've been posting on http://www.inspirated-poems-by-him.blogspot.com/ .. so yeah..
got quite moody today..
i wonder.. friends or foe.. what have i been doing these few years.. where am i.. why am i even in this world.. what the hell am i doing.. what is going on in my life right now.. im confused.. im really confused.. im going crazy.. going down.. chances of falling into depression.. maybe.. i hate it.. i really do.. i gave myself false hopes.. i should have just remained alone.. shouldn't have even tried making friends.. shouldn't even have tried to even find out about this world.. why do i exist? Is my calling for real? What have been going on all these years? Am i even for real? Where am I? What am I? What's my real characteristics? What's the real reason for me being in here.. Im confused.. Im not sure of who're being true to me.. who're not.. who're the ones who really want me to change.. who're those who doesn't.. who're the ones who wishes me well.. who're the ones who simply just want to trample me down.. Am I bound to live in such ill-fated life with high maintainence fees to bring me up? Am I still the spoilt kid I thought I already am not? What is going on? Why the fucking hell am i here for? IM CONFUSED.. I DUNNO WHAT'S GOING ON IN THIS LIFE. WTF IS THIS PLACE !? WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME !? WHY OF ALL THINGS, THIS FREAKING WORLD!? im only 16.. im going to 17.. am i to suffer like this? am i to deal with such crappish issues? i dunno.. i dunno.. fuck.. what's this world to me.. fuck.. what am i doing in here now.. argh.. of course, i wouldn't bother to just go jump down the building or something.. since young i've been given the best from my parents, yet the worst from the society.. thought i've been going really well at start.. died at the end like nobody's business.. deliberately trying my best to change.. nobody there to help.. who am i.. what am i.. here to be forced to do things? here to let ppl crap things on me? here to just be another dumb clown? And here i am thinking of my own crapped up life.. there I go thinking abt those worse than me.. really.. what's going on.. i would like to know.. i dunno.. im fucked up.. what's this life to me? what's my damn purpose? what am i to become? is this all i am? just a fats inherited person who's life gone screwed up with wrong faults all day long? cool then.. cool then.. my story shall just go on.. worrying for those i have to.. leaving those i should.. forgetting those whom i shouldn't have remembered.. ahh. this post is going nowhere.

My mei kinda wants tuh know my personal life more o.O
But as you can see.. im lazy as ever..
So i'll continue using this blog.. ^^
Yup.. Life's been as usual for me.. fun and joy.. pain and hurts.. ALWAYS around one.. the few more irritating parts are d fact that news abt me spreads in d school faster than wild fire.. @_@
alright.. im kinda lazy to blog tuhdae.. sch's tomorrow too.. so im stopping here?
takkare !
remember tuh come to my poem blog often too yeah? ^^

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yup.. visit der often =D

s0rry for not blogging T.T

sorry dudes for not blogging~ i 4got my user n password for the past few MONTHS... hehe.. aniwae im back!~ life's been err... strechy for me.. i've been badly streched by my darling lovable God~! He's brought me to children church to teach.. gave me my calling.. taught me ALOT ALOT ALOT OF THINGS!!

right.. after 2-3 months of not posting of my blog.. im finally back to blogging.. layout maybe changing soon.. dunno.. i like this layout la.. lazy to go blogskins ta find new blogskin.. for the past few days i've been busy la.. POS training was fun though.. today didnt go.. had TAF training.. friend called me to call TAF as KFC >.< kip fit camp.. haha.. cute name.. sian.. tomorrow got flag day.. haiz.. suddenly ppl giving me very strong feelings that dey wan me out of their life straight away.. maybe is me being oversensitive.. perhaps so.. maybe not.. but something is definately wrong.. nvm.. since u all seem so reluctant that talk to me.. den nvm le.. i dun like n dunwan to force ppl to do things dey dun like.. dis kind of thing.. afterall also cannot force one.. sua.. i dunwan to care.. whether it is continue as friends or wadsoever i oso dun care liao le.. i'll stop writing here.. nxt time bah.. buaiZ

okay.. due to too much computer and too much CCA... i think God made it clear to me indirectly that i should quit choir.. and.. i've decided to take away my computer time too.. and so.. whoever see me online arZzz.. must ask me for reasons.. i will only take away free time on saturdays & sundays.. do make sure i get away from the computer by 10pm on sundays.. and on weekdays do make sure i come online with a reason.. else force me to get off mua comp! haha.. MUST hor.. else i play too much sure get addicted again.. i wanna make it a point to complete as much study hours as possible.. so that i will be able to not get any more detention work.. and i will be able to go back to my old ranks.. where i stay in top 10.. so fun.. haha.. yeah.. so do make sure i don't stay online for more than 10 mins per weekday.. else msg somebody to call me get outta the comp or call me straight away and get me outta the comp.('',) hehe.. kae... im going off now.. else i'm staying for long here again.. buaiZzz!

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