Let's start all over again

2007-06-01T17:59:00.000-07:00

Diamond diamond in the sky
Crystal tears in my eyes
Flowing down like a river now
Crying so much nobody cares

Little girl please do not cry
Papa dun wanna see you frown
Please please daughter dun be sad
Nobody wanna see your heart break down

Though it may be hard to accept
But knowing it is still the best
Rather than be kept from it
Truth sets free, oh you know that too

Nu'er cheer up now today
Do not think about the past animore
Forget about it if you're hurt
Nono dun think so much now

Hey little girl now dun you cry
Cuz everything's gonna be alright
Life will still go on just well
So just let the past go off right now

-James-

Story of.. saddness?

2007-05-23T07:16:00.000-07:00

oh well.. possibly this is the last post i'll do on this blog.. anyone who hasn't found out yet, i've been posting on http://www.inspirated-poems-by-him.blogspot.com/ .. so yeah..
got quite moody today..
i wonder.. friends or foe.. what have i been doing these few years.. where am i.. why am i even in this world.. what the hell am i doing.. what is going on in my life right now.. im confused.. im really confused.. im going crazy.. going down.. chances of falling into depression.. maybe.. i hate it.. i really do.. i gave myself false hopes.. i should have just remained alone.. shouldn't have even tried making friends.. shouldn't even have tried to even find out about this world.. why do i exist? Is my calling for real? What have been going on all these years? Am i even for real? Where am I? What am I? What's my real characteristics? What's the real reason for me being in here.. Im confused.. Im not sure of who're being true to me.. who're not.. who're the ones who really want me to change.. who're those who doesn't.. who're the ones who wishes me well.. who're the ones who simply just want to trample me down.. Am I bound to live in such ill-fated life with high maintainence fees to bring me up? Am I still the spoilt kid I thought I already am not? What is going on? Why the fucking hell am i here for? IM CONFUSED.. I DUNNO WHAT'S GOING ON IN THIS LIFE. WTF IS THIS PLACE !? WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME !? WHY OF ALL THINGS, THIS FREAKING WORLD!? im only 16.. im going to 17.. am i to suffer like this? am i to deal with such crappish issues? i dunno.. i dunno.. fuck.. what's this world to me.. fuck.. what am i doing in here now.. argh.. of course, i wouldn't bother to just go jump down the building or something.. since young i've been given the best from my parents, yet the worst from the society.. thought i've been going really well at start.. died at the end like nobody's business.. deliberately trying my best to change.. nobody there to help.. who am i.. what am i.. here to be forced to do things? here to let ppl crap things on me? here to just be another dumb clown? And here i am thinking of my own crapped up life.. there I go thinking abt those worse than me.. really.. what's going on.. i would like to know.. i dunno.. im fucked up.. what's this life to me? what's my damn purpose? what am i to become? is this all i am? just a fats inherited person who's life gone screwed up with wrong faults all day long? cool then.. cool then.. my story shall just go on.. worrying for those i have to.. leaving those i should.. forgetting those whom i shouldn't have remembered.. ahh. this post is going nowhere.

2007-04-01T08:25:00.000-07:00

My mei kinda wants tuh know my personal life more o.O
But as you can see.. im lazy as ever..
So i'll continue using this blog.. ^^
Yup.. Life's been as usual for me.. fun and joy.. pain and hurts.. ALWAYS around one.. the few more irritating parts are d fact that news abt me spreads in d school faster than wild fire.. @_@
alright.. im kinda lazy to blog tuhdae.. sch's tomorrow too.. so im stopping here?
takkare !
remember tuh come to my poem blog often too yeah? ^^

http://www.inspirated-poems-by-him.blogspot.com/

yup.. visit der often =D

s0rry for not blogging T.T

2005-11-16T00:08:00.001-08:00

sorry dudes for not blogging~ i 4got my user n password for the past few MONTHS... hehe.. aniwae im back!~ life's been err... strechy for me.. i've been badly streched by my darling lovable God~! He's brought me to children church to teach.. gave me my calling.. taught me ALOT ALOT ALOT OF THINGS!!

2005-05-27T10:04:00.000-07:00

right.. after 2-3 months of not posting of my blog.. im finally back to blogging.. layout maybe changing soon.. dunno.. i like this layout la.. lazy to go blogskins ta find new blogskin.. for the past few days i've been busy la.. POS training was fun though.. today didnt go.. had TAF training.. friend called me to call TAF as KFC >.< kip fit camp.. haha.. cute name.. sian.. tomorrow got flag day.. haiz.. suddenly ppl giving me very strong feelings that dey wan me out of their life straight away.. maybe is me being oversensitive.. perhaps so.. maybe not.. but something is definately wrong.. nvm.. since u all seem so reluctant that talk to me.. den nvm le.. i dun like n dunwan to force ppl to do things dey dun like.. dis kind of thing.. afterall also cannot force one.. sua.. i dunwan to care.. whether it is continue as friends or wadsoever i oso dun care liao le.. i'll stop writing here.. nxt time bah.. buaiZ

2005-03-22T07:34:00.000-08:00

okay.. due to too much computer and too much CCA... i think God made it clear to me indirectly that i should quit choir.. and.. i've decided to take away my computer time too.. and so.. whoever see me online arZzz.. must ask me for reasons.. i will only take away free time on saturdays & sundays.. do make sure i get away from the computer by 10pm on sundays.. and on weekdays do make sure i come online with a reason.. else force me to get off mua comp! haha.. MUST hor.. else i play too much sure get addicted again.. i wanna make it a point to complete as much study hours as possible.. so that i will be able to not get any more detention work.. and i will be able to go back to my old ranks.. where i stay in top 10.. so fun.. haha.. yeah.. so do make sure i don't stay online for more than 10 mins per weekday.. else msg somebody to call me get outta the comp or call me straight away and get me outta the comp.('',) hehe.. kae... im going off now.. else i'm staying for long here again.. buaiZzz!

2005-01-11T04:02:00.000-08:00

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2005-01-04T01:38:00.000-08:00

bleahx.... todae ish e 2nd dae of school.. currently quite okay.. nobody find trouble with me for now.. hope it stays like this.. hehe.. then school oso quite boring.. nothing to do.. hehe.. den come to studying.. now still not study time yet.. just relaxing and preparing study items.. yeah.. hehe.. sh0 my school till now still no problem lor... hehe.. kae la.. dunwan to write too much.. bleahx.. buaiZ ^^

2004-12-22T01:22:00.000-08:00

for those who cant see wat is written on e picture.. Christmas is just around the corner and we are looking forward to a wonderful time as we celebrate this season.

Experience the joy of Christmas with your family and friends as you watch the Christmas story unfold through a brilliant display of song, dance and music. Be prepared for a wonderful time of praise and worship and the powerful preaching of the Word.

Do remember that we are having two services this week:

Friday, 24 December: 7.00 p.m.
Saturday, 25 December: 11 a.m. (This service will be simultaneously interpreted into Mandarin.)

Still i will hope you will be there to celebrate with me =)

Have a nice day, tell others about this, and enjoy ^^

2004-12-22T01:09:00.000-08:00

For those who are reading my blog.. plz read this too..

Quan is looking very very forward to see all of yew dere!!!

2004-12-10T23:55:00.000-08:00

bleah.. quan currently bored.. thursday was a spiritual day.. at my seat i cried.. as i went for altercall again.. i tremble!!! goss.. but erm.. will only reveal the reason on cell grp.. if im asked to do so =P hehe.. kae i wanna move off already.. buai ^^

2004-12-09T11:04:00.000-08:00

As alot of you know.. quan juz came bak from thailand.. ya.. it was both not nice and nice.. nice caz its a spiritually trip and caz i get to eat rich food.. not nice caz of the fact of who they worship =X ya.. caz of who they worship i had to pray to God and ask him to help me when my parents try to make me worship those "idols"... ya.. so PTL caz i got a way out no matter what happens... and im not gonna worship any other Gods then God himself!!!ya.. then i got quite blessed.. new bags.. new clothes.. new stationaries.. weeeee!~ hehe.. den eh.. ya.. i dunwan to talk abt my trip in thailand liao.. hehe.. nothing to say.. is i lazy to say actually =X.. kae i shall make a move now.. ya.. buaiZzzz

2004-11-25T10:44:00.000-08:00

yep this ish written on e same dae... was abt Pastor Kong preaching in church bahx.. talking abt Antinomianism.. lol.. he gave us ALOT of big word.. =X ya... but in christian life i found out that there is 3 roads.. the narrow, the board on the left and the board on the right.. we should follow the narrow way even if it is hard to move and all... because it is the only correct way.. it is the way of rightenousness... if you veer from the narrow way to the board right way.. then you will be veering towards Legalism.. another big word... to make explanation simpler, it means "Obeying the law with the wrong motive" or "External obedience without the internal obedience" ... yeah.. but if you veer to the left, Pastor says that you will be disqualified from heaven!!! because... veering to the left is Antinomianism!!! =X a super big word.. i know.. what it means is teaching the christians wrong things.. like "Money is evil" and stuff.. from what i heard, veering to the left can lead 1 to go crazy... caz they won't have self control on certain times of their life.. because they heard the wrong thing.. causing them to do the wrong thing.. some pastors even uses God's name in vain!!! hurmp! =X
i think i should type out the 10 commandments somewhere in this blog of mine.. but yeah.. i've explain what the right, narrow and left way are.. so ya.. im moving off to work on my 10 commandments part soon.. so erm.. 1 ting u nid to remember is not to sin after you are baptisted.. =) kae gotta move now.. getting sleepy now.. *yawn!* hehe.. take care babes and hunks, kids and babies, couples and singles.. blah blah =X

2004-11-25T10:32:00.000-08:00

yo.. how are peeps doing? hehe.. went ta church fer seminar todae.. =) the whole seminar finish at 10.50pm.. so i have my dae ended with a evil nite =( caz erm..
1) i missed my bus 173!!! last bus!!!
2) i had to walk to Simon's house and borrow money.. lucky its not hell far away from here.. since he got shortcuts here n dere..
3) another amount of my debt here.. haix..
but aniwae!!! let's 4get it 1st.. i slowly deal with those stuff bahx.. owe until $19 le.. nid to spend $$ wisely liao..
hehe.. yeah.. i shall end with a cute picture of hamtaro!!! =X the only hamster show.. oso the favorite hamster of mine.. my hamster was the same species as hamtaro!!! hehe..

enjoy your day with God blessing you peeps wherever you all go!!! hehe.. =)

2004-11-17T07:10:00.000-08:00

today = mua choir performance..
todae = sucess in choir performance
k i dun crap le.. ya todae was my choir performance.. so ya.. had lotsa fun.. for the 1st time choir sang seasons of love correctly!!!
aniwae if u all want.. this ish the foto of woodgrove & yusof ishak choir together XD

ya.. have fun checking it out kae? =)

2004-11-13T08:04:00.000-08:00

Haix.. todae.. not my dae.. dun like it at all.. a very bad day todae.. perhaps it gotta do with seeing whether i gt faith in my lord anot.. morning.. mum nvr wake me up for SL training.. after tat.. i by suay nvr get chosen as a SL.. afternoon mi go job interview with friend.. budden friend underage so cannot apply.. so i oso dun apply lor.. i dun work for money aniwae.. sh0 ya.. after tat.. go play bball.. only managed 1 nice air reverse pattern, 2 karps and 1 steal.. tat's like.. far from my normal standard.. 4get tat one its juz a game.. after tat.. come home.. lie down on my sofa.. watch VCD.. watch WWE... watch till halfway i go and cook nuggets 4 myself to eat.. guess what? MY RIB CAGE IS INJURED!!! its like.. WHAT THE!!! so ya.. send my prayer request to the cell grp.. continue my journey of bad dae.. i die under the boredom of some hse warming from dad's friends.. lyk expected of course.. my only 2 sources of entertainment.. bible and my touchpoint book.. but i nvr use it.. ya.. after tat parents allow me to cheong to SIS finally.. i reach dere liao.. 1 hr late for service.. cannot go in.. my reply.. "haix.." nvm.. i wait.. reach bible till 9.40+.. den continue to wait.. den wait until 10.40+.. finally gave up.. siam from SIS.. continue to wait oso no use ma.. so ya.. i come home filling my thoughts negatively.. thinking.. "is this a test from God to me?".. "are demons and devil really around me to launch an attack on me?".. etc.. stuff dat i dunwan to say.. but aniwae.. juz this day itself is enough to talk abt what i suffered in other days.. haix.. but this dae is the WORST one in november.. 2004.. for James Yeo Yi Quan.. who broke his own record and got sick 3 times and injured on his rib cage once in 13 days starting from 1/11/04... w00t.. world wide history breaker i guess.. haix.. k i dunwan to spend time crapping any longer.. oso dunhab the strength to continue le.. nid to prepare for tomorrow.. only reason why i prepare ish to know.. WHAT HAPPENS NEXT!!!!

2004-11-09T08:50:00.000-08:00

this next blogskin done.. is done caz of my christian name and my Lord and savior.. i shall intro him to u be4 i continue to explain e blogskin's reason =P he is Jesus.. and his father is God.. =D aniwae.. for the lightning around him.. its due to mua new name.. James.. its meaning is "son of thunder" and yesh i cannot make e sound of thunder yet.. still thinking how.. but aniwae Jesus on e cross is to show John3:16.. "For God so love the world that he gave his begotten son, that those who believe in him shall not perish but have everlasting life".. so erm.. ya.. do go church with me.. i won't force u all de.. fang xin barhs.. hehe.. juz tat its in john3:18 tat said "He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God." so ya.. do go church wif mi to be saved =D k i gotta move now.. hehe.. yesh i know.. very preachy in this post.. hehe.. aniwae i gotta move so ya.. buaiZzz

2004-11-08T06:18:00.000-08:00

heyZzz.. as you all can see.. i've juz created my very 1st blogskin.. its very familiar right? yep it was "copied" from my old blogskin.. flamin eye dreamwalker.. hehe.. but aniwae its still diff caz i did alot of change to this skin.. hehe.. so yeah its not a copied one!!! =X no copyright on tat skin aniwae.. and lastly dey cannot sue me caz i did all the changes needed.. hehe.. aniwae for my holidae.. im rotting at home liao.. sumbody get mi outta mua hse pls.. =X im soon to death caz im rotting away.. k i gotta move now.. buaiZzz

2004-11-06T08:41:00.000-08:00

low.. ppl haf been talking to mi and telling moi tat i havent touch mua bloggie. sh0 anibody if u wan.. quan ish touching mua blog NOW!!! and yes i juz changed mua bloggie caz sumthing happened to mua blogskin's picture sh0 no choice must change.. hehe.. nothing else to sae le.. todae me worship.. can say i becoming more & more faithful to God le.. hehe.. aniwae those who are in City Harvest Church.. or wanna come.. do tell mi.. hehe.. -'.'- hehe.. k i gotta move now.. buaiZzz

neway thish is mua foto with my cell grp members..

We in e coffee shop near church..

We in weiwen's house..

2004-10-14T06:23:00.000-07:00

has been a long time since i last updated this blog... sooo.. has life been great for me? i dunno.. for all i know i've offically become a christian since i accepted christ, and erm.. ya.. and what have i been doing since i last updated my bloggie? hMmmmmm.. i've been studying for exam like siao.. so ya.. imagine bball freak like tish..big change.. hah... aniwae mi got lotsa headach when i study lor.. finally over of course mi happie lor.. tmr die liao.. CHECK PAPER!!! siao liao.. die le.. haiZzz.. later i cannot go back to express how? HELP!!! I NEED TO GO BACK DE!!! hai.. now only got 1 person can save mi.. JESUS!!! may he help mi out.. =) u all oso must praise him hor! hehe

2004-08-22T03:41:00.000-07:00

ytd morning was a very very fun day for me... this workshop called thumbs up came to my school... and the WhOlE wOrLd (mean the whole class la...) is thinking "boring workshop nia!!!!" but den it turned out ta be pretty much a fun one... but den it happened to be fun... if i didn't remember wrongly hor... the trainee who helped out in our workshop is erm... Audrey, Eejay, Serene, Jamie, Shynn and erm... no more... hehe... den during recess i find out dat my darling good friend Joann is oso a volunteer of e workshop... SuRpRiZe!!! for me only... hehe... so our activies... watch a video... then answer some questions... i think one of the qns is "what is the colour which symbolise thumbs up"... so ya... they gave alot of SwEeT~... now i understand why they are in the workshop and managed to make things fun... caz they have sweet teeth!!! hahaZzz...so erm ya... i volunteered pretty much stuff... but den i think i still am not comfortable with the mic... my voice mixed on the mic seems very =S weirdolistic... hahaZzzz... use mic i can die one... but aniwae Ee jay told us some sad story abt himself... =( luckily he got good friends now yea? very touching guy i must say... after all the talk i nearly cry... but guy ma... cannot cry... so i dun cry lor... hehe... after the talk i went down with the thumbs up volunteeries and asked to become a thumbs up volunteer too... so ya... now i'm a member of thumbs up =D about 2+ we siam from school and go to e church... e church was at red hill a.k.a bukit merah... surprizingly i saw more den just a friend of mine... i even saw 2 teachers in tat church... we missed abit of show from the xtreme... caz we reached dere at abt 4... when its suppose to be at 3pm... so yea ytd i spent the whole dae with em... they're real cool ppl... tHuMbS uP rOcKs!!! LuV eM!!! lUv MySeLf ToO!!! hahaZzz... be sure to tell me when thumbs up comes to ur school!!! hehe... i'll luv to dee siao ppl like u at dat time =D alright i write till here... take care u ppls! hehe...

2004-08-11T04:39:00.000-07:00

haiZzz... back to this blog le... chatted with shen long ppl again... guess i regret my disicion... but i no face to see u all anymore le... so i guess i rather not do anything but to siam from shen long and never come back le... looks like i cannot get away from the past le... haiZzz... somebody tell me how... haiZzzzz... think i write till here ba... byeZzz

2004-08-08T18:36:00.000-07:00

OfFiCaLlY oUtTa ShEn LoNg... OnLy FeW pEoPlE WhO cAn MaKe Me Go BaCk DeRe ArE ChErYl & mAbElLiNe... NoT CaRiNg BoUt WhAt OtHeRs SaY... reason for quitting shen long...
>shen long doesn't need me to survive
>people are hinting dat i shld siam from shen long liao
>some ppl inside dulan with me... i oso dulan with them
>not happy inside shen long...
>often get insulted by seniors when i'm inside shen long
>doesn't like being humiliated more when i'm trying to relax inside dere...

reason for those 2 to be the ones who can get me back inside...
>they are my god siblings
>didn't completely quit basketball becaz of cheryl
>mabelline help me in alot of things she dun even know she did...
>they are important parts of my life

haiZzzzzz... come here often write bad things... shows how bad my luck is... cannot turn over le... the day i left shen long is oso the day when i never play all relaxed... caz andy requested in my testimonial dat i can be better if i wanna train... so i go serious... ending result is quitting of shen long... fine with me... i dun mind... dun care... dun give a damn about them anymore... i've offically granted ur wish... i siam from shen long... i've oso found my own replacment... nvm liao hor? see how u all train gordon lor... u all stronger or weaker no longer my problem liao... chalet u all never go oso not my problem le... caz i think i going to ask dad to cancel e chalet le... u all want ownself go book... non of my buiness... i dunwan to care... caz i no longer inside shen long... u all have fun organizing without me ba... zhikai good enough le... he can help out to organize everything without me... i down here juz a useless freak... juz like a basketball being hitted all around...

2004-08-01T07:19:00.000-07:00

haiZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... tonite not my nite... today not my day... i can juz die and dun revive again... everything is my fault... i often get bullied... haiZzzzzz... can't blame others... its just me... sick anot oso get bullied... haizzzzzz...

2004-07-27T07:44:00.000-07:00

ppl keep askin mi mi why mi mi never update mi mi bloggie... soh soh today mi mi update... haiZzz... gonna wait fer somebody le... caz of dat her i gonna wait for 3 years... hope she'll stead with me 3 years later... is there any way to make her like me? haiZzzzz... when will a miracle happen and let me be with her? =( haiZzz... my parents oso... those things time consuming means my fault lor... caz of the time everything i say is my fault lor... all excuses lor... pro sia... haiZzz... angry leh... gotta move! byeZzz...

2004-07-15T05:59:00.000-07:00

been 5 whole days since slamerz a.k.a yi quan came here yea? Ohhhh me gossie~ dat's soh soh soh~ long!!! but nvm... caz SLAMERZ IS HERE!!! muahahahahaha!!! heeZzz... ok.. 1stly hello everyone who comes to thish cute site of mine~ 2ndly tank u peeps for coming to me prettie bloggie and tag like crazie~ like erm... gabbie!!! she's my tag board's flooder... caz i do the same to her tag board too (i think so...) but erm... yea... ok me gotta siam liao... buhbye!!!

2004-07-05T04:29:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! ok ytd nite i had training SIA... v fun neh... anybody jealous? hehe... but aniwae i ran like siao... but erm...nothing much to say...so i end here...BYE BYE!

yesterdae nite~

2004-07-04T00:03:00.000-07:00

ok...yesterdae nite i went ta regent height ta relax abit, see my ex who has come back from NZ and to not care about everything and have fun... so ya... i went there.... wanted to have fun... but ended up... my face... =( yea... so sad... but aniwae... i shall say what the hell happened... i went there, played basketball... that part wasn't bad... later at the extra later part... i played a basketball match... that's is where the whole thing SUCK... it was 6 on 8... i asked my team mates ta play formation... since we're outnumbered... and yet they didn't give a damn and go arguing with me... FINE!!! nvm... dun use formation... after that everytime i get the damn ball they just went shouting at me... i mean... what the hell man!?! its just a game!!! dun keep on calling for the ball!!! so well... they dunnid me what... so i just left the game... not even near 5 mins when i did such a thing... so just to not let anybody notice me... i hid myself till the game ended... group photo time... ok... caz of some SIA LAN people... and the fact dat i'm pulling a long face... i just didn't give a damn about the group photo and walked away... i called my dad, asked him to bring me home... den took my bag from my friend's house... and walked away without saying bye to them... wow... so... whose fault izzit suppose ta be huh? mine or their's? i dun give a damn at all... all i know is that i didn't even enjoy myself AND it worsen my feelings and thoughts... so... its not what i expected the day to be... oh well.. i dun like my days anyway... i always have bad luck what... nvm... gotta move now... next time~

2004-07-03T01:03:00.000-07:00

oh well... here i am...writing my 2nd post.... since may till now...many sad things has happen...i guess this isn't my year... in school, at home, blah blah... bullying me is fun huh? ok... human bullying human... is there such a logic? i don't think so. Since we're all human, i guess everyone has their own feelings. There's a limit to my temper too... since sec 1 i have been controlling my temper, trying my best not to lay a hand on anybody, although i did fight before... but hello... violence cannot solve anything... NOTHING!!! stop wasting your time trying to make me angry and make it fight... go spend your stupid time studying!!! it's not as if i'm some people who likes to be picked on, i'm sure nobody likes to be picked on too! there's a limit for when to stop!!! all i want from this world is peace... can't i have it? i don't think so... nobody managed to make peace in this world before... just me myself? its too little a strength...then again, other people steal my books... WHY IN THE WORLD WILL PEOPLE WANNA STEAL MY BOOKS!?! its not like my book have some jewel inside right? i need ta study!!! i guess i can use this blog to vent all my anger and let all of you see... oh well... i will write abt other things next time...

its night right now...

2004-06-25T07:53:00.000-07:00

hmmm...chatting away with my mei mei... well...quite okay larZ... haaZ... this is a boring day for me alright... had nothing to do... just slacked like crazy people...den i went for dinner... parked the car at bukit timah plaza and went to the market nearby to eat? i mean... what the hell? there's a carpark there hello? oh well... gott move away now...sis wanna use the computer... damn her for using it... argh! we always argue for it... nvm... bye everyone...